School Days

I'm sitting here this morning eating my apple and drinking my Shakeology when I realized, I have not blogged in a while. The end of Summer was spent making memories and that's exactly what we did. The kids and I had an awesome Summer and I am so thankful for every new adventure, every sunny day and every laugh and giggle. It was just a great Summer full of endless possibilities.

I was sad to see the school year come along, I didn't feel ready for Summer to end. But, I was also excited because it meant I would be back into the routine full swing and to be honest I am much better with my workouts when I am on a routine. First day of school meant hitting my workouts hard and it felt SO good! I have been on this journey since May. A lot of sweat and tears have poured into this journey, over 45 pounds shred and many inches (I don't know the exact number as I am not keeping track of this monthly). I feel happier than I have with myself in a very long time. I feel better than I have in a very long time. It's worth it. SO worth it.

At my heaviest, I felt so embarrassed to do things. I felt ashamed of how I looked, how I felt and how I thought people viewed me. I was very insecure even when I thought that I was comfortable in my own skin. It took me losing the weight and seeing the shape my body can take to look back and see how bad I truly felt inside and out. The first day of school would mean having to go to class with my kids and I would stare at my clothes wondering what would hide me the best. But not this year, this year I feel comfortable in my skin. My body is not perfect and it will never be because none of us are. I haven't met my goal, I am not skinny, but I am healthy and I feel confident and that's where I want to be.

I see people I know now who want that change. Who are where I was when I started this journey. I see the want that they have but I still see the choices that they are making that are horrible. And don't get me wrong I still have those horrible days. But this journey, this change, is like a drug. A drug I never knew I wanted or needed but it is. I can have my bad days but I am craving the change, craving how my body feels after I push it to it's breaking point and feeling the feeling of feeding my body exactly what it needs. I see people around me who are there, right there to their breaking point and I want this journey to be theirs as well. I want everyone to know how good this life can feel. It's amazing to be here when I thought there was no hope. It's a great feeling to know that I am no longer saying "I'll start tomorrow." TOMORROW STARTS TODAY!

If you are reading this, where are you? What are you feeding your body? How are you treating your body?

I have so much more I can add to this but I feel like my thoughts are everywhere. The craving for me is there and I want this for me but I want it for YOU even more. I know how it feels and it feels good!